Rain rain go away.

So this month has been wild. How is it July 30th already? I can’t even believe that summer is halfway done and I don’t even have plans for much. You know what I’m over? This rain!! No more rain! (This post was written a few days ago, thank goodness for the sun!)

I was thinking about ways to pass the time and my favourite one is reading. I just finished Yes Please by Amy Poehler. It’s a good read. Honest and funny and you can hear her voice when you’re reading it! (At least I could.) I thought I would make a list of books I’ve really enjoyed. I am still trying to read one book a month and I think I’m about even!

Books to check out:

  • I am Currently reading : French Women Don’t Get Fat
  • The Harry Potter series – read sooo many tines
  • The Hunger Games series
  • The Tattooist of Auschwitz (Very sad and in parts, emotionally hard to read.)
  • Down the Rabbit Hole by Holly Madison
  • The Vegas Diaries by Holly Madison
  • Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey
  • Rich Woman by Kim Kiyosaki
  • Rich dad, Poor Dad by Robert Kiyosaki (I read a few finance books a year)
  • Girl Stop Apologizing by Rachel Hollis
  • The Liar by Nora Roberts
  • Helter Skelter by Vincent Bugliosi
  • The Great Gatsby (one of my absolute favourites)
  • The Plan

Next up is Atomic Habits. Then Bosslady. If you have a great book selection, please let me know!

A little PSA!

Hey y’all!

On a rainy day like today, I would like to remind everyone…

Today is a great day to clean your fridge!

I got up this morning and decided today was the best day to do it! We had so many containers with leftover food, pizza boxes. But the worst is the expired condiments. So I cleaned all of that junk out, and took a tip from my maybe-someday-mother-in-law. She wipes the shelves clean and puts down paper towel before putting anything back. And I took a tip from @gocleanco on Instagram (if you haven’t checked out their page, do it!) and vacuumed all the corners and crevices in the fridge. We even pulled the fridge out and cleaned behind it! It’s time consuming yes, but the fridge looks amazing when you’re done! Send me pics of your clean fridges!!

Annnnnd I’m back!

Hi ya’ll! Sorry it’s been a hot minute since I wrote a blog post. You know when you just feel like everything isn’t going well, and you feel like all you do is complain? That’s been me the last few weeks. I mean I’ve had good days but didn’t have much to say! But this past weekend was alright!

My son went to his fathers for the weekend. I haven’t gone this long without seeing him in quite a while. So really, I had no idea what to do with myself. I didn’t make any plans, just kinda went with the flow!

It was a hot weekend, summer’s finally here! So I was outside as much as possible. Went for walks, went to the campground with my family, had Chinese food for Father’s Day dinner. It was really good!

I can say that I am basically counting down the days until Tripp gets back, even though it’s only been a few days. I know he is having a great time with his dad, and I enjoyed some me time.

As a mom, you sometimes look forward to a break, but as soon as you have one, you want it to be over. My son is my world and when he goes, I tend to feel a bit lost. I can’t speak for all moms but that’s definitely how I feel. Happy Monday everyone!!

Happy Mother’s Day!!

I have so many wonderful mothers in my life! First I have my amazing mom! She’s the greatest! I get a lot from my mom, her face, her hair, my green eyes even though hers are hazel, my attitude, but she’s not afraid to be herself. Ever. I’m working on that 🙂

I have my grandma who is the sweetest person ever. Something I get from her she will help anyone at any time. She will drop what she is doing and help out. She would do anything for anyone. She’s great like that. I try to be like her.

My sister and sister in law are both fantastic moms, have beautiful children, are smart, hilarious, and always there for me when I need them!

I have an amazing group of mom friends, some I’ve had for years and some that are new! I would just really like to say Happy Mother’s Day to all of you but I’d be sending out messages all day long! So I’ll say it here. Happy Mother’s Day to all my mom friends, family, fur moms, and everyone! I hope you all have a fantastic day and get spoiled! I miss you all!!

Anniversary of the Beast

Today is May 3rd. The Anniversary of the beast. I remember it probably just like everyone else. I went to work in my favourite little black dress. My best friend Selina and I went to lunch and sat down on the patio. Ashes were blowing into our food and we didn’t really think much of it. We live in a place that wildfires are a part of our life. It was mainly on the other side of the river. I had a quesadilla from the Canadian Brewhouse. My favourite meal from my favourite restaurant.

When it was time to go back to work, we were standing in the parking lot. We noticed a new second column of smoke. We figured a new fire had popped up. We didn’t know that the fire had jumped the river.

We came inside and slowly but surely, everything turned to chaos. The fire had indeed jumped the river. Which meant it was headed our way. We were still taking phone calls at our job. Then I got the text that started it all. “You need to come pick up your son.” At that point nothing else mattered. I went to my boss and told them I was leaving. I said I was going to pick him up and that I was coming back. Leaving everything at my desk except my purse and my phone, I sat in a 45 minute lineup to get to a place that was 3 minutes away. Luckily I had gotten gas the day before and filled my tank.

I started to head back to the office, and sat in traffic another 30 minutes. I then got a call from from my coworker. The director was sending everybody home. I didn’t even go back to the office. I went home which normally was another 5 minutes but took over an hour. Traffic was insane! I’ve never seen it like that. The sky was getting dark. This had been a +30 day without a cloud in the sky. I got home and immediately started packing.

I was convinced we would be out for a week max. I packed as such. I grabbed blankets and pillows, important papers, clothes, toys for Tripp, iPads, computers, chargers, and food. I didn’t know where we would go. I was listening to the alerts of the emergency system ring out every five minutes or so on the radio. My mother was at her job at the hospital. My dad was also packing and getting ready to go. I knew how bad traffic was and wanted to get going. I had heard down south of town was getting bad. I was texting my friends and family as much as I could.

When we finally left, we started down the road to the overpass. It was so backed up and all I could see were cars. I watched a car drive up over the side of the overpass to get through. People’s vehicles were tightly packed. I did my best to follow the rules of traffic and not cut anyone off and not get far away from my dad in his truck. Tripp, Sofie (the dog) and I were in my car. I was keeping Tripp busy by letting him play the iPad in the back of the car. When we got to the bottom of the hill, you have the choice to go right, south of town, or left, north of town. A cop made the decision for me, he was telling us to take the highway and go north.

North of town is where the oil sands are. There a few different sites up there as well company buildings. There are no hotels, motels, air bnbs unless we go REALLY north. I didn’t know where we would be going. We were in gridlock traffic but we were away from the fires. I remember at one point I was parked next to a car that was full of animals. She had really cool reptiles in the back in cages. Tripp thought that was neat. At one point I lost my dad, freaked out and decided to pull off onto a side road and sleep there for the night. Dad eventually found us and we went and stayed at his company’s building. It was a small office building and there were all kinds of people there. I couldn’t believe the amount of mosquitos. When I think of that night, I think of mosquitos. Tripp and I slept in my car and dad and Sofie slept in the truck. We brushed our teeth in the office building. I laid and stared at the roof of my car until one in the morning. I was trying to call and text but they wouldn’t go through. My family outside of town knew we were safe and that was what mattered. I hadn’t heard from my mother.

We were awaken at 5am. Someone came around and knocked on our windows and said it was time for everyone to head south. That 45 minute drive that had taken hours before seemed to go by in the blink of an eye. When we came in to town, I had a fleeting thought to go home and get a few more things but we were told not to and I didn’t want to get into trouble. We’ll be back I thought. No reason to risk it.

That drive was like something out of a novel. The hill that the day before had been lush and green was completely burned. There were still spot fires on the hill. Downtown was covered in a thick fog of smoke so you could barely see the towers as the sun was coming up. You couldn’t see any of the houses that had been there the week before.

The five hour drive to the city took me almost 9 hours. All I wanted to do was get to my brother’s house. He and his family had moved there a couple weeks before. I’ll tell you something. I know everything happens for a reason. If he hadn’t have moved, his family wouldn’t have had somewhere to go, and he would have been in the same boat we were. I will forever be grateful for him and his family taking us all in.

When we finally arrived, I can’t tell you what happened. I seriously can’t. I don’t remember. I remember seeing the fire on the news. I remember there being a lot of people, a lot of little ones, a lot of animals. My mom had been on a bus with all of the hospital workers and I think they were flown to Edmonton. I think we had a big dinner but I honestly don’t remember. I was exhausted. I was in shock this had just happened and I was with Tripp. I had to be as strong for him as I could. He was playing with the kids so he was happy. I remember I received a text that night. It was a picture of my street. The fire had hit one of the houses. That night, we were laying in a camper trying to sleep and I prayed to God. Please let our home be safe. Please please let our home be safe. I was too late.

The next day we went into town and was getting coffee for everyone. We got the text then. It was gone. Our family home. Where Tripp crawled for the first time. Where we brought him home from the hospital. Where he had his own room. It was gone. I began crying immediately. I’m tearing up now just writing this. Tripp asked what was wrong and I told him. I’m sorry buddy, but our house burned down. He was sad for a few minutes. Then we went inside Tim Horton’s and got the coffees. We went back and told everyone the news.

I don’t remember much about that month. It was the most beautiful May though. We were outside lots, I went to the gym lots. My brother and his wife were the most fantastic hosts. I couldn’t wait to go back and start rebuilding. We were really lucky we knew someone who was renting a place we could stay while our home was rebuilt. We went to the malls a lot for something to do. There was a playground around the corner. My grandma came to visit. My memories of that month, although a lot are sad, it was a really great month. My brother and I went back on the day re-entry was allowed. I needed to see my neighbourhood, he needed to check on his rental properties. It was the strangest feeling in the world.

My neighbourhood, which was a beautiful neighbourhood the month before, was completely gone. There were a few houses and a couple of apartment buildings. There was so much damage, we weren’t even allowed in. Seeing everything was so eerie. I cried so much that day. It was incredibly overwhelming. We got back that night and I couldn’t wait to hold Tripp.

When it was time to go back to work, I was so excited. I loved my job. I was good at my job. I had the best coworkers in the world. Selina, Shannon, Suzy and Krista. I still have the picture we took the day we got back. But even that period is a little bittersweet for me. I was dealing with rebuilding at work and at home. I was stressed all the time. I would burst out crying randomly all the time. My job can also be an emotional one. When you’re living, breathing things like this, it’s really hard to hold it all together all the time, and be a full time mom. But after all of this, I know what matters most in the world and I can honestly say I’m so grateful. I have an amazing family. I have wonderful friends. I have the greatest man in the world that I met after the fire. I have the best little boy anyone can ask for. I have my dog. I have my health. More often than not, I have my sanity. I have a roof over my head. I have a car. I have a job and income.

This year while this anniversary is happening, my city is once again suffering. Last week, we had a flood that has affected many properties. I can’t imagine what these people are going through. But I want to help.

If anyone reading this has been affected by the floods and you need help, or you just need someone to talk to, please reach out to me. Or if anyone knows someone who needs help, please let me know. We are Fort Mac Strong. And we will prove it again and again.